Still waiting

...And a couple of years later you learn that they're just myths.
Forgiveness is in fact a sort of acceptance. For me, at least. It does not hurt less. Passed time builds a distance... and once you look back you see more - THAT experience among others... focusing on one brings up the same feelings, looking at the bigger picture dilutes them just because there are many others. There is you. A strange puzzle made of pieces that make sense together and separate in the same time.

Am I better? I don't know... It's just me, only with a colder heart and with a better understanding of the others. Games are still played for fun, only this time instead of coming from learning about myself, the fun comes from evaluating others, from "predicting" reactions and watching them happening.. adjusting the results with every gesture. And it becomes easier each day. Or is this just an illusion?